Have you made a list for your New Years resolutions of things to improved on or want to do and make do? I need to be consistent and be reminded. I want to focus and remain. I want the best of me to come out, all the time and so I have written about 25 of it. I hope you did yours, too.
Mine is a list of something i have to continuously remind myself to do, practice or maintain. I just want to make sure that i don't lose focus when I get busy,distracted and depressed. Some in my list are in practice for a long time. I just fall off the wagon sometimes when I feel defensive and hurt so much. I need to be more peaceful with whatever life throws which sometimes offsets my balance, integrity and faith.
For me, loving can be a big job when always in pain and disbelief. Believing and trusting can be blurry when things never seems to improve or change for the better and good. Working hard can be tiring when there is no fruitful outcome that comes back. Getting old is such a challenge that dying young is imagined at random. Every trial and fall backs are feeding me doubts and weakness when alone and forgotten. So what do I do? What is it that i will be physically and mentally inspired to keep and be proud of ? My flaws and mistakes and wrongdoings are a part and parcel of my being human...yet this is not what I was meant to be . This is not what God intended for me to take part of and be part off. I better get stronger and avoid whining, complaining and tearing myself apart. I made mistakes, I know my faults and I am ashamed of things that I said in furious outrage. I have lost my self in the midst of failures and defeats. I accepted the end of what seems to be great and the beginning of the new unknown.
Staying sane, peaceful and grounded inside is a still a walk on the rope...but I have to insist,persist and be in my best element as what I am designed to be. A woman who is mature, confident and loving...at peace with my decisions and failures...at peace with what I can and can not do...at peace with my failings yet remains in the running for what is good, what is right and what is kind.
This New Year , I decided to give myself a good look and a great break. I have to stop being gullible and trusting too much and yet I still have to learn to just trust without doubt.
I have to remember that being a grown up woman requires me to be much more trusting on my instinct and perceptions. I have to question, observe and analyze an opportunity that seems to be presenting itself to me. I have to trust yet I have to be assertive in giving up that trust.
A new me is only an improved ,wiser and stronger me. This new year seems to be more fitting to have these good deeds and thoughts put into everyday practice. What is your imperfections? What bothers you most? Do you need some tweaking, improving and redesigning of your belief, characters and manners? Isn't a NEW YEAR the best time to make these changes?
I know,for me it is. Nothing is wrong in realizing my best character potential especially when I know it's all in my hands, in my committed heart and mind, to fulfill what may,also be the keys to positive changes not just in my life but for others,too.
MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS OR IMPROVEMENT AGENDA
1. Be sweeter to my boys.
2. Stop talking too much
3. When offended & ignored do not retaliate by inflicting hurtful insults.
4. Be happier..for myself and others.
5. Be more responsible
6. Do not blame others.
7. Make a no-complaint days
8. Call mom or kids once a month
9. Be more forgiving
10. Get more sleep
11. Rekindle or create new fun hobbies
12. Change hairstyle/look
13. Go out and meet new people
14. Forget the past
15. Be the best I can Be
16. Dance and sing again
17. Learn new language
18. Stop being gullible,be assertive and mean what I say
19. Have family meeting once a week
20. Play guitar,trumpet or keyboard more often to learn more
21. Clean up and redecorate the whole house
22. Genuinely love and care those people who cares and love me truly
23. Give more
24. Accept defeat and be strong
25. LIVE LIFE and LIVE IT GOOD!
If and when I can learn, practice and/or maintain any of these then it is a victory and truly a FANTASTIC NEW YEAR!
1 comment:
Hi Helen,
Happy New Year !! How are things there in Canada? Must be pretty cold, I reckon. Here in Thailand, it's a bit cooler than usual - only 28 Celsius!
That's quite a list of resolutions. Hope you can keep them all. Hope I can make it to Canada one day too. It'd be really nice to meet you. But that's still a long way off, I'm afraid.
Stay positive and enjoy the New Year!
Robert
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