Wednesday was cruel, exhausting and renewing at the same
time.
Wednesday was cruel, exhausting and renewing at the same
time.
I was handed an offer for a severance or choose to be
retained as part-time worker.
I have learned time and again that good work, dedication and belief in the
company is never sufficient to somehow be acknowledge as a contributor and
loyal associate and great sales force that were good to keep. It is a great
five years cut short by corporate changing ways in saving money.
I did not like shedding tears that time but it is necessary
to let it go on that spot. It is like bathing out the bad dream and allowing
the people who delivered it to witness if not experience the agony of the
decision they made. I am not going to rebel of the loss insurance that
comfortably comes with that job though it was an important slice. I am not
going to miss the non-acknowledgement of what I brought to the company but the joy
from the company of people I like working with.
It is half of intake and less the health insurance. It is
big but not big enough to rattle and depressed my situation. I am sad of the
thought for not having much time in seeing my work family and kind customers
yet there is a feeling of relief and a long heave of sigh that I felt. The
freedom from less work is the most important thing for me. My artistic brain
has been languishing in an environment that has not much creativity to spark me
and now it is an open road again.
How do I look at it without much stress? Well, there is
Cover Me by Manulife that I can join in to continue my health insurance policy.
To think, I worked as part time for 11 years before I got that full time-sucking-life-boring-brain-numbing
job, it is what I just needed to do. Seriously, we are talking about retail
work for which after a month I pretty much know most if not all of the job
needed to be done.
I am now in the talk with two company for possible on call
or part time work. I can start my crafty days again and hoping to write as much
as I can. Travelling and visiting people I think about. Home works are never
done so this lazy days will be busy days.
It is perplexing how they seems to be scared or too careful of
the people they are trying to kick or bargain into cheap labor. I think if you
have been good enough to people in your company, people will leave with
gratitude and more understanding. I would love to go back as a part-time
because it is less about the money. I have some good years notwithstanding the low
pay.
I and the boys have a great support and a few great friends
who offer love, laughter and some company to talk with about life. I know I am
loved and I am just glad that my mother called at the perfect time. Turns out, I
have everything I need.
AS always, have faith and choose happiness!
I
have these little mantras I keep in my heart…..
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment
DO what makes you happy!
Worrying is a
total waste of time. It does not change anything.
All it does is
steal your joy and keep you very busy doing nothing.
