Perception

I am at work again and looking out on a drizzly parking lot of my Plaza. I had a small talk with Ed, my co worker who is not afraid to give his 2 cents that we end up always head butting with clashing ideas or perceptions,at times.
We are living in a world that is unreal yet real. The things we see is not necessarily the things they are in many different eyes. I may find my old shoes as a rugged and sexy pair and yet others may reflect the broken and tattered stictches on it and therefore garbage worth.

I think that I find beauty in anywhere. I am not afraid to say that am partial with white people, artisans, eccentrics, trucks,classical,fashion, bags with many pockets and flat & leather shoes. I am friends with a Jamaican woman, Iranian ladies, a Chinese girl and a couple of Filipina. I am saying that because though Jamaicans are not white, it is my personal preference and perception that she is one of the girls I can live,love undestand and agree to disagree with...yet I prefer dating a white mature guy.I think they are funny, stable and self-assured and they look good when sunburned and beside my Asian look. Yes, That is my perception. having said that I admire the talent and looks of Will Smith and Michael Jordan and yes, M. Jackson.

Yes...what my eyes can see may be not to my liking and awesome to you but they are all form of God's incredible creativity and they are beautiful in their own ways and in different eyes that behold them.

You may judge my perception but life is not what it seems. Nobody is perfect therefore having my unique perception can be just as good or or as bad as anybody else's.

Philosopher Eddi

NOTE: I tansferred a copy of this note in My Helen and the Boys blog. Please read my mothering of four boys from here in afar on the said blogspot.


My son wrote a note about his personal history and I am amazed how great of a writer is he at 13. I made him known that I am very proud of him and that he should continue to write and always do it.
When he was a lot younger, my routine to him is asking him to write me a love note or love letter. When he is angry ,I encourage him to write it down. I see some snippets of those note sometimes around the house. I am able to know him more when i read his piece about how he see things and how he feels.

He is an incredible young man. Uniquely Eddi and every one who knows him will just nod their heads and agree that he is eccentric in his own clever and annoying way at times. He even diagnosed himself with ADD. I researched it and he was no way anywhere near the description but I always thought there is something really so different about him that it frustates his brother so much. My son have no OCD as i see it, he is not weird in things he does but he is unique in his decisions and learning methods and seeing the world at times. We fought for what he thought is the right way and the better way...when all he wants is to be the winner in the discussions and attacks on tackling chores the Eddi ways.

He tells me he loves me and becomes quietly obedient when he learns he is wrong or misjudge the situation. He is an amazing literary genius in the making and my father who exuded in intelligence and philosophy would have been proud.

I am blessed yet so much trial and frustrations will still be in the offing bringing up a smart philosopher of his own making. I am ready as i am proud to have him test my witts and parenthood.He is, afterall, doing what he knew he thinks is just and proper...the Eddi way.

Back to old school regimen

back with my Retin A and vitamin A intake. Hope it will help.
If you are 40plus,can yo, please, share your beauty regimen to me...and maybe I can do something diferent?
My skin goes from restful and blushing to pale and bumpy.
I hope to have no more for my coming birthday.
I love photographs and having my pictures taken with or without make up and I want my kids to remember a happy pretty mother jumping for joy rather than sulking in the corner and depressed for the embarassing zits(trust me..i did that too). I just want to be happy and clear soon.

Adult Acne

I have no skin problem when i was younger. This pimples really bothers me a lot even if it's only one at times. I still continue to use my Retin-A once or twice a year and it helps.My only concern is that it get more stubborn as I get older.

I don't smoke, drink and never done drugs and anything that can be bad for the skin.
I am always wearing hat, sunscreen and moisturizers. I use acne wash for face and I use toners( Marcelle..which is amazing to feel).Internally, I take vitamins and eat lots of fruits. I still have these eruptions at least once a month and have tried the popular Pro-active(it worked yet i don't like the regimen i have to go thru everyday to maintain it's effectivity).
I just found out that those advertised product are better for younger skin so am doing a research to find the best for adult skin ( at least for me). I will let you know what happens...say maybe in three months. I guess we can't really hurry up beauty when you are my age.

I just thank God that there are great pharmacological findings and pharmaceutical geniuses that concocts new and effective treatment medicine for skin disorders and tantrums. I just thank God there is me.

More Intuned

I believe we have a certain feeling or connection that leads us to do somethings we never even thought of doing. We have our own instinct that we refer to as coincidence or just pure luck.
This week most of what I have gone thru is not coincidence. I knew it will happen I knew... what others were thinking or saying when they are looking in my eyes.I knew God's hand is guiding me. I knew my angel or inner guide is here.

Have you listened to yours lately?
Have you done something that contradicts your instinct and regretted doing so?

Be open and listen.
You may have a better day everyday.